The End of the Road: A Prostitute’s Story (Chp.7)

The red-light district in our town is under a bridge and the surrounding areas of pavement are very narrow. To make matters worse, the road bends sharply at both ends and drivers do not reduce their speed when navigating through it.

This makes it easy for vehicles to mount the pavement and knock over anyone loitering beneath the bridge.

As we were driving past it one evening, I pointed out to my husband how dangerous it was for prostitutes to gather under there.

He gave me a quizzical look and replied:

“Can’t you see the irony of what you are saying? You are concerned because you observe the speeding traffic and state it is dangerous for them – their whole job is dangerous!”

I saw his point. Every day they are at risk of being brutally attacked or murdered. They could contract deadly diseases, become drug addicts if not already, and give birth to children who are vulnerable to child sex slavery.

Many of them are trapped and terrified of their pimp. Those lucky to leave the trade are caught up in a web of Satan’s lies that tell them they are trash, no good for anything else and such a disgrace to society. Their own guilt eats them up from the inside and after having given themselves away to so many men, they don’t feel like there is much of themselves left that they can be proud of.

The sex trade is dangerous for ladies of the night also because many end up hating themselves so much that they deem, it impossible that a holy God would ever love, them, accept them or forgive them.

But he does. All three.

The poem below is based on a true story about a Brazilian prostitute, but if you have cheapened yourself in any way with the precious body God gave you, this is for you too.

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All My Friends Are Pretty

I should have worn a see-through blouse,

And put on more eye-liner.

These stockings are too thick,

I wish they were finer.

My skirt’s not short enough.

The hem is too long.

It hides my lovely thighs.

Oh, I’ve got this all wrong!

I wish my hair was straighter,

And look what I’m concealing.

My top should be lower.

That would be more appealing.

I’m never the first

To be picked up our here,

But they’ve all driven past.

No client has come near.

All my friends are pretty.

Perhaps I’ve lost my looks.

I really hope my pimp

Doesn’t scrap me from his books.

Each girl has been approached

And jumped into a car.

This is humiliating.

The worst night by far.

Now there’s only me left.

It’s cold and this sucks.

Tonight, I’ll be grateful

If I make a hundred bucks.

All my friends are pretty,

But I’m approaching thirty.

I feel old and worthless

And I feel so very dirty.

My toes are numb

From three hours in high heels.

Will I ever get used to

These nightly ordeals?

Delay prolongs the torment.

I want to sleep and forget.

Being alone on these dark streets,

Always makes me fret.

To help with oblivion,

I roll up a strong spliff –

I’ve got a stash of heroin

And some cocaine to sniff.

We give ourselves away,

So many times a night,

That there’s no time to wonder

If what we do is right.

The behaviour of some men,

Often leave me shaken,

So, I inject to numb the fear

That my life could be taken.

I really need a coat,

And I need to rest my feet.

Ah, who is this strange guy

Strolling down the street?

Does he want to get acquainted?

This part’s always scary,

But there’s a girl behind him

So, I am not so wary.

But, is he mocking me,

With his great big smile?

Now he stops and asks,

If he could talk a while.

‘Don’t want talk, I want business!

Can this man afford my price?

He hasn’t got a car

And he’s being much too nice.

But all my friends are pretty,

So, they’ve already got their work.

Seems like I have no choice

But to go with this jerk.

He holds out a small book

And beckons me to read,

Then he says to me softly,

“Here, this is what you need.”

It says, “For God so loved the world,

That he gave his only son…”

Oh no, I need a quick escape –

Shall I grab my bag and run?

Then, suddenly I realise,

These are words that I should cherish.

It says if I accept God’s son,

When I die, I will not perish.

This book, this book, this book!

Now I know what he is holding!

The words inside have come alive

And this mystery is unfolding.

It was twenty years ago

Someone did the same thing,

By showing me a bible

Which made my small heart sing.

Wanting to hear more stories,

I searched the next day,

But to my disappointment,

I heard he had gone away.

I want to know this Jesus.

I need no more persuading.

I want to be completely free

From a life that is degrading.

Oh, I must tell all my friends

When they finally get back.

They think they have all they need,

But this is what they lack.

All my friends are ugly,

They are trapped and in despair.

They block out the reality,

By pretending not to care.

All my friends are ugly,

For inside they are crying.

Because life without Jesus,

Means one by one, they’re dying.

I gave myself to many

Who wanted to use me.

But God has forgiven,

For he’s full of mercy.

I won’t compare myself

With others anymore,

For right here I have found

What I’ve been searching for!

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